There was a bottle of pills in the medicine cabinet. They were behind the mirror. I had to look at myself when I wanted to take something, try to fix something. I mean, to help me stop my breath. A few years ago I let those pills expire instead of me. Around the time I started collecting loose change and saving for some future I realized I’d like to see. There were a handful of months when I couldn’t stay sober. There were the days when I privately poisoned myself. A coffee table built of cheap fence wood so weak it could only support my empty cans. And that was fine. I gave it my all. I gave it nothing. A few years ago we met like joining rivers. We were always flowing the same way, it just took us years to reach the lake. I’ve turned the page so desperately, the fresh ink has stained my fingertips. I worry I might leave prints on something clean. I live like something is watching me. Waiting for when I renew my prescription.
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